Fluent

I would love to live like a river flows:
Carried by the surprise of its own unfolding

::: John O'Donohue :::

Amazing and puzzling music videos

Hollerado - Americanarama



OK GO - End Love (and all other OKGO music videos)





Feist - 1234



Feist - I Feel It All

A forgotten note, recently found

Of what purpose is thought, if not to bear fruit?

For I am only barely loyal to You, and only in my thoughts.
In my thoughts, the answer has always been- and will always be- You.

But of what use are these thoughts, if they do not bear fruit in my actions?

Inspiring links and not-so-inspiring thoughts

this inspiring post by Maggie at My Breakfast Blog

this spoken word that I heard today

this song lyric by First Aid Kit: "I live because I love to"

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I just need to try to be more positive, I think.

Or. Hmmm. Or would it be an abomination to try to be something I'm not? I'm not overly positive, I'm not overly negative, I don't think.

So, again, I ask: Would it be an abomination to try and be something I'm not?
I'm not saying don't work to be your best, because that's just it: be your best. Not Barbie's smiling best. Would it be wrong to try to be positive and "always look on the bright side of life" when that's just simply not how I'm wired? Why do I always need to be happy and positive? I hope I'm not a debbie downer, but should I be feeling guilty for not being able to keep up an appearance of shining optimism?

I think I'm concluding that it is okay to not be happy. And to clarify, you can not be happy, but still be filled with love and still have the joy and hope that God gives. Why do I still want it though? Happiness is a fickle emotion after all, right?
Does it come back to confusing happiness with fulfillment? Sometimes I wonder if fulfillment will ever make its home in me, at least in this life anyway. And then this is usually the point where I go "probably not, but just maybe it will" and lay my head down to sleep.

It seems I'm always thinking, and only in circles, never making any progress.

"How old would you be if you didn't know how old you were?"

 -Satchel Paige

...I think I would call myself 62. Old enough to be openly cranky and still young enough to surprise people.

Saw this and it adequately explains my reasoning most of the time : P

from here

Going without Shampoo

Soooo it's been about...12 days (?) that i've gone without shampoo!
And my hair is getting this weird texture...not quite greasy, oily i guess but kind of stiff?

Anyways, I started out washing every day to every other day with baking soda and apple cider vinegar (both of them barely diluted) and saw that my hair was getting dry and brittle even with the ACV. So I did a little more research and realized my mistake. So for the last week, I washed with diluted baking soda Sunday and Wednesday and then rinse with ACV. My hair is now getting that stiff, oily feeling I  was talking about, with the crown of my head looking greasy so I've been putting it up everyday.

So far, the transitional phase is still going strong. I just hope that in a month or two, keeping your hair shampoo-free is really as great as everyone says...but hey, life is for learning and for experimenting, right? : )

Where is this creative streak you speak of?

You may not know it but this is not original.

Nothing is new, all used.

Words, thoughts, ideas

Implanted into your mind like historical notes taken from every

action, look, and letter ever seen by your hopeful eyes.



But still we will try.






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Things to try:

Well, this took a while, but here is the list I was talking about a while ago in this post.

~*~*~What to try in order to keep from being a hermit bum this winter and be productive~*~*~

Going without shampoo

Beauty the lazy hippie way

Being a minimalist (my shoe obsession is sick) and selling some things on amazon

Not being a hermit this winter

Those last four credited Holly for this post that made them oh so much easier to find. Oh, I do love me some linkage.

 Making this lovely breakfast on a cold Saturday morning (via WhatKatieAte)

This dairy-free Ranch dressing recipe (since my favorite chip and veggie dip is forbidden)

Read through a few books:

In Defense of Food: An Eater's Manifesto (Michael Pollan)

Food Rules (Michael Pollan)

How To Think Like Leonardo DaVinci

Become accomplished

Apply the basics from the mindful eating group I'm attending to become healthier (it sounds korny, applying things you learn at school to real life, but it's...well, basic) : P

Now watch this!

I just spent two hours studying Physical Geology and my mind is cloudier than ever. I miss the clarity that my Calculus class provided...Math is easy, science muddles me.

Part of me wants to say

never mind. never mind, wash the ink off your hands, please. this secret is not yours, but mine.

i fear you will judge my openness and emotional capriciousness.

Happiness hit her like a train on a track

Do you think happiness is enough? Sometimes I think people mistake happiness and fulfillment...I look forward to fulfillment, to knowing that I loved more than possible. That is what we were made for right? I worry that in the end, when looking back, the moments where I chose to ignore will outnumber the times I chose to love. I worry that I will not have loved enough.

I can't remember where I first heard this quote by C. S. Lewis, but it struck me and the truth of it has never left:

If we find ourselves with a desire that nothing in this world can satisfy, the most probable explanation is that we were made for another world.

Tighten Up by The Black Keys

I found this music video by the black keys while exploring...I love it! I'm going to be needing an iTunes shopping spree soon : P


By the way, what happened to embedding videos? I was going to add this right on here, but it only has an upload-from-computer option...
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