I am a girl.

I am a girl who loves seeing full rainbows, beautiful butterflies, and ugly bugs.

I am introspective and sometimes shallow.

I have complex thoughts and ideas and reasonings but I am simple.

I am full of shining hope, but always expect disappointment.

I have hippie ideals and Christian theology.

I have my realistic, practical, futuristic head in the clouds.

I crave new experiences but dread change.

I see how everything is connected and I feel unattached.

I am honest.

I am a liar.

I am good.

I am bad.

I am a true paradox, a flurry of contradictions united in one being.

And I am truly loved.

Take me to the land of the half awake
There I can make my dreamy escape
To the borderline world where the lines are smudged
And it doesn't matter if I don't wake up

In that place, your demons pull
One step at a time
But you're still in control

Take me to the land of the half asleep
There my close friend is Apathy
He'll relax my thoughts till the lines are smudged
And it doesn't matter if I don't wake up

Hold on tight to the truth you know
If you loosen your grip, it's easy to let go, because

In that place, you demons pull
One step at a time
But you're in control

In that place, it's easy to break
Did you feel it happen
Now that you're awake

How to Be Alone

So there's this cute boy at work and he's adorable and when I went around giving everyone frozen snickers bars, i asked him:

..."Would you like a frozen midnight treat?"

What is wrong with my mind???

Tattoos

How do you feel about tattoos?

I enjoy them. I think they are beautiful. They are little arts all over your body. Or big arts all over your body.

But there are obviously many opinions out there about them. I've heard someone say they didn't want to get a tattoo because they were worried it was the sign of the devil.

I've tried to reason my way into that one, but I can't make that one make sense in my head.

Anyways. I have some tattoos in mind.

















This one I want right above my elbow. Three is a great number. There is a lot of symbolism in that number and I like the fact that since they are rings that go around your arm, they never end- infinity.



















The one I want is similar to this, but different. It still has the concept of things going over both wrists, but on the left there will be a tree or branch, and there will be motion- like wind- blowing leaves onto the next wrist. But by the time the leaves reach the end of the second wrist, they will have turned into butterflies and will be beginning to take flight.


Last but not least, I can't find a picture that's similar to this:
An equilateral triangle, flat side down (pointing up) kind of on the top of my back, between the shoulders, not quite touching the neck. Outlines in black, very thin lines, not filled in. About 2 cm on each side. Again, the three motif. In a geometric form.

*pictures are from here*
**also, if you know why the pictures are so large, even though i selected small when downloading the url, i'd love you forever if you told me**

"If only I had an enemy bigger than my apathy, I could have won."

-Mumford and Sons

Lollapalooza

SOOOOOO...!!!!

Tomorrow is Lollapalooza!

And I'm excited for everything

the food

the beach

the city

and, of COURSE, the MUSIC

we'll be hearing/seeing temper trap, MGMT, mumfors and sons, frightened rabbit, and switchfoot

i am VERY VERY VERY for mumford and sons and switchfoot!

so, as a little pre-lollapalooza amazingness, here is the lyrics to one of mumford and sons' songs (all there songs are simply genius):

Awake, My Soul- Mumford and Sons

How fickle my heart and how woozy my eyes
I struggle to find any truth in your lies
And now my heart stumbles on things I don't know
This weakness I feel I must finally show

Lend me your hand and we'll conquer them all
But lend me your heart and I'll just let you fall
Lend me your eyes I can change what you see
But your soul you must keep, totally free
Har har, har har, har har, har har

In these bodies we will live, in these bodies we will die
Where you invest your love, you invest your life
In these bodies we will live, in these bodies we will die
Where you invest your love, you invest your life

Awake my soul, awake my soul
Awake my soul
You were made to meet your maker
Awake my soul, awake my soul
Awake my soul
You were made to meet your maker
You were made to meet your maker

Aaaaand, I gueessss, if you want to listen to it
heresthevideo!